This summer I'm supposed to be a counselor at a camp and take young girls out on trips. I'm supposed to show them their potential, help them open doors, or as a counselor of my own once told me "shove 'em out the god damn window if they're not willing to walk to the friggin' door!" Can't say I'll do that, but I am honored to even be given the title of counselor. I worry that I will not do the job correctly though. That I am not fit for what the job entails. Who am I to be a role model for others? I've messed up so many times, often with the same things, never learning from the previous.
I wish my roommate knew how amazing she was. She probably never will because she's also so busy searching for who she is, striving for what she wants to be but never believing that she actually could be, or even might already be. She trusts no one and that's mainly because she doesn't trust herself. Someday she'll learn. This year has been a lot for her. Someday she'll learn that it wasn't these moments that made her the person she is but were the things that later on gave her the strength and courage to find the traits that were already in her. Someday she'll learn. Someday she'll learn how to trust, love and accept. Herself.
Someday after that...she'll learn how to accept other people's trust and love. For her.
Someday she'll know she means everything to me :)
Roommate.
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